This book has become my best friend of late!
I would like to say, I’m sorry for every drunken rant, overshare of past traumas, arguments, confrontations, tears, careless choices, conversations where only I talk and mostly for not seeing beyond my own nose every time I end up having more than ‘just the one’. I don’t like drunk me, it’s not who I am and I don’t show myself in the best light once the booze gets into my system.
Word to the wise, when you’re drunk, the truth does not come out, just a huge pile of shit and verbal vomit overspills and drowns what’s meant to be a girls night, work drink or dinner out.
The amount of bad and reckless choices I have made through the years and blackout nights or days I’ve unconsciously been a part of 🤦🏻♀️ have accumulated and reached a climax for me. Enough is enough.
I’ve wasted so many moments because I’ve missed them or ignored them because of craving just ‘one more’. Today I’ve not drank for 5 days and although I’m only at the beginning of my journey, I am proud of myself thus far. Today would be my midweek wine fest but instead I’m enjoying camomile tea and watching Corrie.
Alcohol has long been a crutch for me, a boozy bubble of protection ... or so I thought. Actually it’s just been an angry storm cloud of which I’ve been trapped under for too long. The anxiety and ‘beer fear’ I’ve felt for three days a week for about 10 years has become almost paralysing and now I am saying no more.
I’ve made the choice that my mum couldn’t make and I no longer choose to drink.
I’m sorry for being so public but just want to get this out there and not feel compelled to explain or defend my choice.
Thankyou so much my amazing friends and family for putting up with ‘Frank-the-tank’ for so long. Now, you can enjoy calm, happy and most importantly healthy, Frankee Bella.
If that disappoints you then it was nice knowing you 🤗
Finally, everything is only as impossible as we make it in our minds and learning when to say no is the strongest power anyone can ever have ❤️ #soberstory #theundexpectedjoyofbeingsober #sobergirl #nomore #nothanks #dry #beginning #learning #trying #memyselfni #love #peace #selflove