I don’t think there’s ever been a single day that I haven’t said your name aloud inside my mind, as I struggled to hold back my tears.
Although you left me heartbroken, and sad, I still pray the best for you my love. I want you to know that it still hurts to remember you. But it hurts more to forget. You gave me so much joy when you were near. I guess you were right when you said, I’m the one who keeps messing up. Loving you made me blind, in so many ignorant ways. For that, I do apologise. But thanks for overlooking my faults, and loving me instead. In all honesty, I wish that you have the same kind of love that you gave to me. In fact, I pray so desperately, that you get the same love treatment, you gave to me. I pray that someone comes in to your life and showers you with praise, the same kind you gave to me. Using the words you said to me, with the same sort of feelings, you then, felt for me. I pray that she gives you the same silence, the one gift you most gave to me. I want her to show you the same sort of kindness that you had towards me. Giving me freedom, by not texting or calling me. I took you for granted, and never showed gratitude. That’s why I thank you my love. I understand now.....Your silences, and absences, was your way of loving me. May someone whom you love dearly, return the same gift of silence that you bestowed upon me. Be careful honey, don’t do what I did. Don’t lose your mind over the silent periods. Don’t text a thousand times like I did. (I’m sorry for the messages by the way). I’m sorry for showing so much love. I pray you experience the same great love and concern you showed to me . In the three years I’ve known you, I’m sorry for acting crazy when you told the truth. The same way, I pray that the new woman is the epitome of perfection, dealing the same way with you as you dealt with me. I pray it all for you. After all, it was me that was bad. You never did nothing wrong. I want you to re-live our love. with someone else this time. The blessing of having a person like you, to love. I pray you get the same sort of love you once gave to me. And it’s because I love you, that I wish you the very best.