this is probably going to be completely pointless but idgaf i just wanted to thank loren for everything she makes me so incredibly happy and she makes me feel so loved and like i have a purpose in life but I really dont. im so depressed rn its not even real its like i cant feel anything like emotionally im a mess inside and out and it fucking sucks. i came home from my moms after almost a week of not seeing these people and i just get treated like shit the only people who have talked to me is my dad and brother and im extremely grateful for them. my head and heart hurts so freaking bad right now i just want to sit and cry and you can call me an attention seeker all you want but im so alone rn i have no one to talk to and it sucks. the two people i want to talk to i cant and its killing me. its like i feel so damn worthless rn i just want to die. i was cleaning the kitchen and i do a lot of thinking while i clean and i just dont even want to to be alive anymore and im sorry for being annoying and ugh i just really hate myself rn bye no im not okay rn and please dont dm me
I dont care if you dont want me.
Im yours right now.