We are meant to share our stories, as many beautiful and messy chapters as possible. This is living in our truth. This is how we get to living the life of our dreams, by owning who we are, unapologetically.
This afternoon in a meditation, I was shown the word Growth along with a butterfly and this quote, only the quote was encoded as a feeling---a deep knowing.
I had asked, "Why am I where I am right now? What am I gaining from this?" It's amazing what messages we get when we sit down and teach ourselves how to connect.
If you're curious in building your intuition to gain answers, I suggest you drown yourself in material to understand what you could/should expect (most of the time you'll realize you've already experienced a lot of it). Then treat yourself like a student. Be patient. Allow the student to make mistakes and be decide for themself what was right and what was wrong.
But tune into how your body feels---the excitement, the heaviness, the chills. Start there. That's your body telling you yes, no, and spirit saying "I'm here." Baby steps!