Friday 11th may.
Morning snack after gym: 1peach
Lunch: boiled chickpeas with 1tbsp of olive oil + some slice of cucumber.
Afternoon snack: 1pear.
This afternoon after long time I heard the voice of an old Indonesian friend of mine, because he's a speaker in a small Indonesian radio station. We became friends online (I'm Italian and he's Indonesian) because we both love Japanese manga and anime. We became friends 4 years ago, but we video-talked only for 1 year. We haven't talked for 3 years, since 2015. Now We only follow each other on Twitter now. That's all.
Well... I really liked him. Of course I couldnt "love" him because we never met in person. But I really liked him. I liked his kindness, I liked the fact that everytime we talked (using Skype) he used to play a song by oasis to me. I loved his personal background,his knowledge about politics. We talked each other for some month, and I never showed myself full body in the video. Always my face only. After some month, he started not calling me anymore. I found out that he got a (real) girlfriend (now he's single again). And maybe... He also noticed I'm fat and he refused me. My obesity is also the reason why I decided not to talk to him anymore even when I found out he broke up with his (beautiful and slim) Indonesian girlfriend.
Well, this afternoon I heard his voice on this Indonesian radio and I suddenly missed him so much.
Even if he never reads this, even if he never knows how fat I am, even if we never talk to each other again and of course we never meet, I'll tell him and you this:
J, I like you so much, I like your voice, your hands and your kindness. Even if you've been acting all cocky and cold recently, I know you're kind at heart. I wish you the best. Ku cinta kamu.
Spuntino della mattina dopo la palestra: 1 pesca.
Pranzo: ceci bolliti con un cucchiaino d'olio evo sopra + qualche fetta di finocchio.
Merenda del pomeriggio: 1 pera
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