#fkaround.. there is no throwback Tuesday or whatever in my life .. not anymore .. not another day .. I don’t even know who that girl was yesterday, or the the one the day before for that matter.
I had a conversation that I was really looking forward to yesterday .. which just wound up pissing me off really really bad. Like unexpectedly fucking KO to the face. Left hook style ~ what felt like out of nowhere to me. And the thing is, this other person thought they were being helpful and gentle. But I fell apart and they kinda just stood over me and watched me break. It was weird. 🥀🤷🏼♀️ I mean I guess that’s all we can do: allow people to have their feelings. However, I have replayed this over and over in my head. I even spent all night fasting and meditating. I moved my schedule around so I could see inside my heart. My heart was screaming so hard at me and for one of the first times in my life, I had to protect her. ✨♥️✨ You see, this person thinks that they gave me a healthy example of LOVE. That I might eventually come and pay them to do that to me again. 😮🤦🏼♀️😔 I was so floored .. I really couldn’t say anything about the state of my heart but goodbye. 🤷🏼♀️And you see y’all, I am no wallflower when it comes to nonviolent communication. 👸🏼 If you have something to tell me, and you deliver this ~ sometimes useless and superfluous information for it is merely perspective from your mountain ~ to me in a hurtful way. I have the where with all to stop and take a deep breath. 💨 I will then let you know in the kindest way possible, no thank you and please reframe that or let’s just agree not to speak anymore because I will not come under your vibration and frequency. ✨👸🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️👸🏼✨ But that is not what happened yesterday, and it really shocked me. Like, it took me down. 😮😮😮But that’s it y’all. I’m done. 👏👏👏 I have thought about this conversation over and over all day yesterday and even into my dream space. 🌒🌓🌔🌕🌖🌗🌘
I am not hurt. I am not offended and you know what, the bottom line, is this person had no idea how much I was SO DOWN with their stream and what they were doing, and now .. not so much really. 🧐😕
I AM A RADICAL LOVER 🔽
Port Saint Lucie, Florida