I kinda want to get this out the way like right now and with being next week being the mid season finale so here it goes and to those that knew since last year you can go on or just read if you want to remember so here it goes .
So after watching episode 6 I was happy to see Carl because duh he barely had scenes. And when everyone kept making rumors Carl was going to be the one to die it left me having panic attacks every time I thought about it. Well I tried to push that aside and my friend Bella and Ayva tried to reassure me that Carl was not gonna die. Well back then I would have to wait for the episode to air and then I could watch it. Well I made sure to stay off of Instagram so I couldn’t get spoiled. .
I was watching it and I noticed that Carl kept dropping hints and I noticed he was very sweaty that was my first sign. Well my second sign was when Carl told Negan to kill him and at the exact moment one of my other friends Carly sent me a text and said “try to have a good night” and I replied “im trying” I kept watching it and I was very anxious
When they showed Carl looking very star gazing I was saying to myself “Rest Carl you saved everyone it’s gonna be fine” and when Carl said “that’s how it happened” and I was quickly saying “no no no no” and he showed his bite and I literally no joke reacted like Michonne and I cried on my phone and I cried on my Phineas and Ferb blanket. And then I realized why Carly sent me a text she saw Ayvas post about Carl and she knew I was gonna be having a really tough time. I ended up crying for two hours and crying myself to sleep .
My sis said she heard me crying and she said “try not to cry Chandler wouldn’t want that” and I went to work and I cried a few times there and I cried a total of 11 TIMES that Monday. It left me depressed and I was glad that it will be delayed until February .
Honestly Carl’s Death still hits me hard in the face and I just wish he was still alive and I felt everything after 8x08 was pointless. Until someone asked me if I was gonna keep writing my story Twins Forever and I said yes but everything Logan is me how I am coping with Carl dying and everything else. .
So that’s my story