Mentally, physically, emotionally - everything has come to a grinding halt.
The last 6 nights I’m averaging a solid 3.5 hours sleep per night. Training is all over the shop, I tried to do a body pump class last night and was out of the room in less than five seconds. Anxiety is kicking my ass, I’ve got a bowling ball in the pit of my stomach and I feel like I’m constantly swallowing sand. My relationship with food is becoming unhealthy again and being completely honest, I’m just fucked.
But, I will not let this defeat me - I have more fuel in the tank, I’ve just gotta find it.
I’m going to do some LISS training tonight just to get some endorphins following and see if I can get myself out of this rut.
The journey isn’t always physical.