My codependency got so bad, I was scared of leaving my toxic relationship.
Seeing each other even once a week seemed like to much to ask for one of my ex's.
Maybe you've experienced this, too…
I was miserable, always wondering why he acted the way he did towards me😭
Hardly wanted me around, kicked me out of his house when he got tired of me, & accused me of trying to change him when I expressed my concerns for his behaviors.
The more he pushed away, the more I tried to pull him back in.
So, he called me clingy. "Learn how to be alone, Dylan😖
I cried a lot… asking why I wasn't good enough for him, I never understood it.
Yet for some reason, you tolerate the mistreatment, you tolerate the fucked up number of ways he makes you feel unworthy.
All because you're fearful of being alone & you just let it happen. Your happiness revolves around having someone there.
How many of you are going through similar?
The thought of surviving without a significant other literally made me cringe, I couldn't even imagine doing it since I basically jumped from one relationship to the other every few years. I was never without someone.
I used to stay until I was forced out of the relationship or I had someone else to jump to🤦♀️ A year later he ended up dumping me & I was forced to rely solely on myself.
It was rough & took me a few months to get back on my single ass, not gonna lie, but now?
Now, I'm okay with having the "me" time I deserve... I want to go out by myself without someone there to lean on. I'm not reliant on another human. & it's fucking liberating. My head finally feels clearer when I get to do things alone🤯
I'm not saying I never want anyone there now, BUT I don't crave another person's attention anymore.
From where I've been to where I am now, you're treading some pretty toxic waters if you constantly crave another person's attention to be happy instead of taking care of yourself.
If you struggle with this, you aren't alone, but know there's ways to a confident more independent life & you can get there starting now.
Drop a ✌ if you're struggling to be independent, seeking happiness from external sources.
I'm here to help, boo🙏