Forming new habits... While reading Essentialism, The Power of Habit was referenced several times - yes, I've added it to my list.
One of my "goals" or #19in2019 is to stop picking at my face.
It's the worst habit I have.
I've had acne for what feels like my entire life, but I think it started when I was 9 - soooo two decades.
It's been really REALLY bad, summer after HS, and it's been really good - but it's ALWAYS been there.
And. Over the years, I've developed the habit of picking at my skin every time I'm in front of the bathroom mirror.
I hate it.
I feel the bumps on my face by accident during the day - and I want them gone - so off to the bathroom I go.
Logically, I understand that this only makes things worse - but there's something about it - maybe the control it gives me in a situation that has been out of my control for over 20 years?
I've tried everything there is. I've gotten rid of every single acne treatment because I wanted to stop punishing my skin and I've accepted it. Stopped fighting it. But I've never intentionally tried to stop picking at my face out of love, from positivity.
I learned that habits are made up of 3 things - Cue, Routine, Reward.
Find the cue and you can begin to change the habit.
My cue? Touching my face. The routine and reward hardwired in my brain? Picking, bleeding & scarring plus feeling ashamed that I did it again.
So, I'm trying to replace the routine with drinking water in hopes that the reward is clearer skin for 1. Drinking water and flushing things out & 2. Not picking // making it worse.
Who knows - maybe my 30s will be the decade I finally have clear skin.
And even if they aren't - I'm still good and enough, but dang it would be nice.