Our journey has been like walking through a dense, dark forest with little light... A positive pregnancy test in August 2016 brought excitement and joy,
It felt like the light at the end of the tunnel during a time of turmoil,
It was short lived though,
In the early hours of the morning, a few days later a miscarriage brought with it
Feelings of failure,
Feelings of shame and blame,
Feelings of anger and worthlessness,
I cried and asked why me, why us?
I begged and I prayed for the gods to have Mercy,
Just to give us one chance.
Once chance at being good people and parents.
We were told it happens to 1 in 4,
We need to learn to relax,
That it was unlikely to reoccur,
So we got back up and tried again.. 2017 brought with her hope,
But ten weeks down the line,
A twin missed miscarriage ended it this time.
It has been a lonely path,
Filled with distrust, mistrust and despair,
At times it felt like we had been forgotten,
And no one really cared.
There has been anger and resentment,
Disappointment and overwhelming fear,
Shock and disbelief,
Again December ended in grief.
The path has been filled with sorrow and grief,
There have been days when we were hopeless,
There have been days when we were lost,
There have been days when we gave up,
Days where we fell apart.
There have been days where we wondered where the path would lead... (Full link in Bio)
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