After many doctor appointments, I was told that my chances of conceiving were extremely slim and after trying for so long, I thought I would never be able to have a baby. I had already given up the idea I’d ever being a mom. On November 15 2018, my life had completely changed! I was pregnant!!! I was extremely excited, couldn’t stop crying of joy, I would finally have my baby! On December 8th I found out I was having identical twins, I will be honest that I freaked out a little, but after I was so excited that I was getting double the blessing, listening to their heartbeats through the ultrasound was life changing, I felt like finally my life was now complete.
Later, after some complications I ended up in the ER, doctors did an ultrasound, and I couldn’t hear my babies heartbeats, they were gone. It was the worst pain I’ve suffered, not only physical but emotional. It was December 22 2018 when I lost my babies, just three days before my birthday. I went into a depression, couldn’t spend the Christmas holidays with my family, I just wanted to be alone, to grief. But Thanks to my loved ones that were able to help me get over the depression, I feel stronger now, but deep down inside it still hurts, and will always hurt. I will never be able to hold them in my arms, but I will forever hold them in my heart ❤️❤️ they will always be loved. #mylittleangels #momtoangels #twinangels #twinmom #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness