I took this photo a couple days ago, the first day I actually put on clothes other than PJs or my suit for work. The first day I’d gone somewhere other than work or home in a long time. I’ve been silently on social media since New Year’s Day. Mindlessly scrolling, not really posting. Frustrated with my current situation and sitting here feeling stuck and sorry for myself. 😤🥔Too embarrassed to share the amount of time I’ve been sitting on the couch wasting the days away.
Last year, we were dreaming of having our own house🏠, our own pup🐕, hell even just a new couch! We finally have it all, from the brand new house to the sweetest baby girl we could have ever dreamed of, so why am I still feeling this way?
Today, that all stops. I’m listening to my Rachel Hollis audiobook, following it up with my podcasts, dousing myself in all the ‘stress away’ and emotional support oils I own, purging all the clothes I still have from middle school, picking up the laundry and the drinks lying around the house, and making a difference for myself by myself.🌱🎇🍾 I started my yoga practice again, started doing what I need to do to actually grow my essential oil business instead of just making a to do list. For the first time in a long time I feel empowered to start making the simple changes in myself and in my life, including being more present for my little family and actually doing something instead of just dreading tasks or complaining about not doing them. 🌟I’ve got this, and I’m excited to see how I can grow and learn from myself. (Ps, shout out to this super blood wolf moon which is supposed to be excellent for self-care!) A huge and very difficult step for me is even admitting this all publicly, putting it out there for almost everyone I know to see. It’s hard for me to share, hence why I barely even caption my posts or even post things period. But I’m trying to make changes so here is me trying to embrace it and make a change. 😊