It has been one hell of a struggle going from where I've been to where I am now. I've been through many internal and external battles and I probably have lost 3x what I have won. I have come to realize that my life is constant war but what I choose to do with this info makes all the difference. You could look at it baldly, war is bloodshed, tear shed, fighting, and death or it can be seen as a revolution, freedom, independence, sacrifice for the greater good. Only thing you need to ask yourself is, what am I fighting for?