Tomorrow marks 6 months from when he finally took his plea deal, 6 months since what would of been our three year anniversary, and 6 months from when I had to accept my new life. It would take me a few more months to lose all hope, to let go for good, but the pain still sits in my heart. Tomorrow we go back to court, tomorrow I have to face him again, a journey I wish on no one. This will be my life for the next three years it seems. Constant uncertainty, constant reminders, constant heartache. I am stronger than the woman I was a year ago. Yesterday memories of some of the abuse he did a year ago flashed across my mind, and in a month and four days, it will be exactly a year since he tried to kill me, to kill us, when I saw my life flash before my eyes, and didn’t know if there would be a tomorrow. I was reminded by my dear friend, @thatprincessgirl yesterday that I have my angel, @jedi_elvis watching over me still, just from above this time. I am reminded constantly by the scars left of what I survived. And I have great role models, who have survived abuse as well, constantly inspiring me, and giving me hope. I am a different woman. I am a stronger woman. I am a survivor. My friend circle has gotten smaller, but my faith in God has gotten bigger. I couldn’t count the amount of nights I have cried myself to sleep, but through faith, and friends and family that have been consistently a phone call away in the moments I didn’t know if I would ever be able to get up again, I am here. Bruised and all, I stand here. Ready to face my abuser again. Ready to face what God has for me next. Ready to live with no fears and only teach through love, teach through example, and help those like me, whom are not sure how to walk again after facing this kind of pain. I’ve found my purpose. What’s yours?
: @leikosphotography @roguewolfartist