🇮🇳 [ No man's land ] 🇳🇵
It was no man's land. The border, the LINE I had to cross all alone, on my own. No friends living there waiting for me. It was like a call, that I had to receive. A call, telling me all about my fears. A call which made me understand all about my confusions.
It's like a new identity, sorry, the original identity of my own that I was about to live. But before that I had to dig the real one out of me. The "ME" which got covered with fears and confusions.
It's like being on no man's land for a long long time and waiting for some miracle to happen. But miracles are not gonna come to me if I don't step forward towards it. I had to stop the auto-rickshaw to feel my fears coming alive, or about to come alive. Cigarette smoke, dry cold dusty wind and I see all my fears in front of me. The layer of dust on my sunglass I see, which was making my vision unclear. Even if the wind was cold, I feel the sweat on my forehead.
Had to clear the glass. But didn't wipe out the sweat on my forehead. Probably because of the breeze passing by and making my forehead feel cold, like I could feel my fears. What an amazing feeling. Feeling of fear. Fear which pushed me harder beyond my perspective. Human beings are capable of doing things out of imagination.
A solo trip that made me understand the thin line between what we are capable of doing, and what we should do to things go in right way for the future which never exists.
But does it mean I have no fear now ?
No. Now I have fears too. But now I know how to understand the fear. Because what you don't understand, that's what you fear. ✊🤘
~ Random thoughts.
~ Location : Raxaul Border. On the way to Birgunj.