How often do you feel like going back to bed and throwing the blankets over your head? Or wishing you hadn’t gotten out of bed that day at all? Wanted to duck and run for cover? Wanted a do-over? Yesterday was one of those days for me. Nothing seemed to go right.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
The boys were whining all day, which I expected because they didn’t fall asleep until late the night before and then got up extraordinarily early, but I thought that was the recipe for a good nap after a hearty lunch! They proved me wrong! Oliver simply refused to go to sleep and Ryder, oh my gosh, Ryder! I caught him in the closet, behind the dresser, and on the windowsill, only to have to change two poopy diapers before I gave up on ever getting a shower.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
They’re typical for their ages...well, mostly. A couple of smarty-pants, they are! What’s not so typical is that I ran out of three of my meds and wasn’t handling it all too well. I was low on sleep, high on anxiety, and low on coping abilities, plus I was going through withdrawals after only 48 hours without one of the meds, which meant headaches and cold sweats.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
My insurance company is very particular about when I can fill one of them and I waited until the appropriate day only to have no refills left and my provider’s office closed for the weekend. Then, I forgot to run to the pharmacy before Scott left town for work, knowing that I’d have the boys.
So, yesterday, the boys had clean clothing to wear, ate three meals plus a snack, and had baths. They didn’t brush their teeth because Cricket chewed both of their toothbrushes. Then again, neither did I, but I didn’t have that excuse. They watched a TON of Thomas and Mickey! Oh, and although I stayed in pajamas all day, I did a load of dishes and a load of laundry. #boom⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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