Well, yet another person told me I come off too strong. Immediately I felt like there was something wrong with me. Like my personality made me a burden.
But they weren’t wrong. I’m honest. Like super honest. I’ll tell you what Im feeling.
Bold enough to say what most people would be either ashamed or embarrassed or nervous to say.
But I would never intentionally cause any harm.
I both love and hate this about me. .
I love that people can know what they’re getting with me right up front.
I love that people can feel like they can trust me.
I love that people can be vulnerable with me because I was vulnerable first.
I love that it allows more genuine relationships with people. .
But I hate that it makes me seem reckless or even fearless.
I hate that its overwhelming for some and it scares those people away.
I hate that it makes me seem so confident that people forget that I have real genuine insecurities that I don’t always share.
I hate that it overshadows a sensitive heart and kind intentions because I first come off as abrasive.
I hate that it sometimes just leaves me vulnerable and that much more available to pain. .
Don’t get me wrong, I really love my nature. My forward honesty is an intentional practice. But sometimes it hurts. Sometimes it sucks to feel like something you’ve worked so hard to become isn’t well received. .
Sometimes I wish the fearlessness my bold honesty portrays came with a “zero Fs given” attitude. I’d like to say “if you can’t handle me, you don’t deserve to know me” or something like that. But I care a bit too much to mean it. .
I don’t really know what my intentions of this post were other than to say that people have layers. And perhaps to continue to be open, honest, and a little vulnerable. .
I love you guys. Please don’t ever feel like you take up too much space, or you need to tone yourself down to accommodate anyone else.
Please continue to shine your light at whatever brightness you naturally shine. What might be blinding for some, could be just what another needs.
Be well 💛🌻☀️