NOT JUST A BAG
Routine. A massive must for many autistics. Fortunately The Monster is pretty good when it comes to change in routine. We can make massive changes, for example starting school and his recent new bedroom layout / bed and he absolutely rocks it so I ocassionally overlook the seemingly small things.
This morning on the drive to school I realised I didn't have his school bag. It only has his home/school diary and jumper in it so I figured we would wing it without it for today. Only when it came to dropping him off he was upset and frantic. He wanted his bag. He wears his backpack to school EVERY day so he needed it today. Ahh man, the mum guilt at seeing him so anxious! I actually get it. I feel the same if I go somewhere and realise I've left my purse or phone at home. I tried explaining to him that I had forgot it but he needed to check the whole of the car and boot for it. I offered him my bag (I still rock a backpack too for The Small One), for a minute he was keen. I emptied it, put it on his back and he walked to the gate but stopped firmly in his tracks when it came to going in.
Thankfully he didn't protest too long when the teachers made a fuss of him and as I was getting in the car to leave the head teacher came over and popped her head in and said as soon as he went through the doors he just clicked and that episode was over. I've no doubt that is down to how well he has settled there and how he knew what the structure for the rest of the day will be. I love that she knew it was hard for me to leave him and that coming over would make me feel better.
Sometimes, the big things are so monumental that the change in routine is welcomed / exciting, but the smaller things are the cement that holds everything together. I need to keep mindful of that. Sorry buddy.
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