We got back yesterday from a long weekend in San Diego, and it was our first time traveling with a Lila. I officially need a vacation from my vacation!
I’ve done a fair amount of challenging things. I’ve managed teams of grown men twice my age, moved to a new state where I knew no one, worked for Fortune 500 companies and learned to navigate the politics that come with that, started a business, worked my way through college, heard no far more times than I’ve heard yes, fired people. But nothing has brought me to my knees like motherhood. I’ve never felt so inconsequential and helpless yet known that the weight of someone else’s world is on my shoulders.
Dinner last night went much the same as every other outing with Lila needing to be passed around, bounced, walked around the restaurant or taken outside until she FINALLY calmed down and fell asleep on my chest secured in her @sollybabywrap. As we were leaving dinner last night a Mom with a little boy who looked to be about 2 exclaimed as I walked by, ‘oh I LOVE the Solly wrap! I miss those days!’ with her hands over her heart. And I about burst into tears and hugged her. She couldn’t possibly have know how much I needed that reminder, that these days may feel like the highest highs and lowest lows, but they are fleeting and sweet.