As a kid, I was ALL about the spotlight. I loved public speaking and I was after lead roles in school productions. But during my 20s, anxiety crept into my life and the things I used to love the most, I found myself dreading. I would feel sick to my stomach at the thought of presenting in front of peers, avoiding situations like that at all costs. I hit a point where I didn’t want to go out with friends because I was anxious about what I would contribute conversationally.
How did I get over it? I haven’t fully gotten over it. But I started rebuilding. I spoke to professionals, I rallied support from trusted family and friends and I was fortunate enough to keep moving forward. Each uncomfortable situation I showed up for allowed me to learn and grow and be better prepared for the next. I have the most gratitude for my teaching chapter. I was able to work on my social anxiety in front of a respectful and supportive “audience” of teenagers. Their sense of humour and genuineness disarmed my public speaking fears. The social confidence I gained through teaching allowed me to step back into the activities I loved as a kid, like acting and improv.
Winter is a tough season for many, including myself. We’re all human, with the same wants and needs - acceptance, belonging, love.
Sending strength and love to those who are troubled to find it within themselves right now. This too shall pass ❤️