How do you all practice self care and healing? Since I am a #Gemini and we are in the twins season, I’ve been very #reflective. Today, I got a 2 hour #meditation. Was feeling SO connected to my abuela & she gave me much needed guidance.
I decided I wanted to create specific areas of my life to focus on strengthening. The 4 that really resonated with me were #career, #love/sex, #parenthood, and my #integrity.
I started off with wanting to set some intentions, but noticed that with career and love/sex, I actually ended up sharing mostly questions, fears or insecurities I’m having. For a moment I wanted to push against writing those down, but then decided to shift & write what felt right in the moment, even if it didn’t match my original intention.
Love/sex was the hardest one to start. I discovered this is the part of my life that needs the most healing....& the area that I genuinely have no idea how to heal from. It’s hard for me to envision an ideal relationship when my heart feels so wounded & may now doubt love. That makes me a lil sad because I LOVE love. just need time I suppose.
With career I realized I don’t know what the fuck I want anymore lol. My type-A control freak self would normally be curled up in a ball, in a corner, crying like I was about to die with not “knowing my future”. But right now I’m genuinely ok with it. I’m just so enjoying WHERE I work and not really focusing on the WHAT I’m doing just yet. I’ve been focusing on “the what” for so long. I feel like I spent the last 2 decades BUSTING MY ASS trying to prove god knows what to god knows who. So I’m slowing the fuck down & truly goin with the flow. I’ve never been so damn present in my own life. It’s incredible.
Working on the integrity & parenthood made me feel #powerful af. I realized those are the areas of my life right now I am feeling the most successful, which was a good damn feeling to experience. I loved getting to work on all 4 of those components of my life at the same time & just let everything ebb and flow with each other. #geminiseason #listentoyourancestors #mentalhealth