2018 is the year creating balance and not caring what other people may think. By the looks of my instagram page I am totally healthy and positive, right? Well, let me tell you, this is NOT and has not always been the case.
After my accident in late 2013, I took what I thought was “healthy” to the extreme, so far it was unhealthy physically, mentally, socially and spiritually . My diet and exercise was the only thing I feel I could control after my accident, it was a way to keep the flash backs and anxiety at bay. I was totally obsessed with exercise, what I was consuming food wise and the number on the scale - weighing a tiny weight of 56kg and given my body type this is incredibly light. I thought I was the fittest and happiest I’d been in my life BUT I was always cold, had an extremely low heart rate, no energy, no period and suffering with huge anxiety. Is this what being happy is? Definitely not.
Skip forward a year, to 2017 and I now suffering with a binge eating disorder, (and something I’m still faced with today). My body was burnt out after a period of anorexia which lead me to uncontrollable binge eating. With the additional stress of a new job I totally lost any control, which downward spiralled into a deep dark space we call depression. I did not exercise; I ate whatever I wanted, put on a lot of weight and didn’t socialise. I felt horrible, and it was a vicious cycle I felt I could not get out of.
Today, I am a lot heavier then I was 2 years ago and still dealing with the devil of body image (like majority of people) but I am working towards balance.
Holistic health is my passion – and I love eating food that makes me feel good, and I wasn’t eating this way in either of the 2 extreme phases in my life. I was either not eating enough feel good food and overstressing my body, or I was eating processed, s*** food that makes you feel the same way. My instagram is full of food that makes me feel good and I hope my story inspires you and the younger generation. What an emotional journey we are on – but one I had to go on to realise what I have today. Both males and females, the issues of body image are real and it affects all of us.
Love Tay xx
Forbes, New South Wales