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Breaking the highlight reel for a moment ✨
Anxiety has been debilitating this year. I had my first days work placement for my course at college yesterday. I managed two hours but ended up having a panic attack in front of clients and everyone and had to leave. I can't go back. As I get older, I seriously wonder whether there's any job in society I could realistically function in. Whether I've volunteered or been employed, I always end up taking months off due to extreme anxiety spells. I didn't leave the house for two solid years as a teenager and still battle with agoraphobia everyday. Future finance scares me; I'm trying to think of self employment routes from home and the welfare system will not help at all unless you're literally dying (even then it's hard to get anywhere). I wish society would still see people as having worth even when they can't provide or function in a workplace.





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I used to think I was the only person who felt like this. But trust me, many people feel the exact same way as this. Many people are tired of hiding their mental illness and feeling the way they do. But I promise, you are not alone. You don't have to keep your struggles a secret. There are many people who will understand you and be there for you if you take that leap of faith and share your demons. Living with mental illness is hard and if takes up a lot of your energy. So it's best to use that energy the best way - dealing with your illness, and not using it to hide your illness and worry what will happen if people ever find out. So if you have a secret, share it! Tell it to someone you can trust. I can't promise that it will make all of your problems disappear, but I can promise that you will feel relieved that it's finally out there. And at least you won't spend much needed energy on things you don't need to spend your energy on.


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Throwback to yesterdays dinner together with my boyfriend💑
Ja, bei uns gab es lecker Iglo Backfisch und dazu Smiley Fries.🍟 nebenbei gab es für mich noch Ketchup, Karibik Sauce und etwas pikante Tomatensauce☺
Durch die Arbeit fehlt mir jegliche Zeit meine Mahlzeiten zu planen oder tracken. Das meiste macht mein Freund und da er momentan auch einkaufen geht, fallen meine safefoods immer mehr weg, was ich vollkommen in Ordnung finde. Zurzeit esse ich was und wann ich Lust habe. Ich zähle eigentlich keine Kalorien mehr und komme soweit ganz gut damit klar. Es ist nicht unbedingt leicht, aber mir fehlt ehrlich gesagt auch die Lust jede Kalorien zu zählen, geschweige denn irgendwas zu wiegen oder zu planen. Ich stehe täglich 7-8 Stunden auf meinen Beinen und bin viel in Bewegung. Es ist anstrengend und da brauche ich einfach Energie und dadurch fällt mir das Essen auch so viel leichter. Ich snacke auf Arbeit Kekse und Schokolade, sowie ich Lust habe, etwas was für mich vor Monaten noch undenkbar war, aber es tut so gut. Ich esse wieder Butter auf meinen Broten und sämtliche andere Aufstriche, wie ich eben möchte und darüber bin ich total froh. Abends gönne ich mir Schoki, einfach weil mein Körper es verdient hat. Ich habe es verdient mir etwas zu gönnen. Mein erster Vollzeitjob fordert mich sehr, aber er gibt mir so viel zurück was ich die letzten Jahre vermisst habe. Außerdem verdiene ich endlich genug Geld um mir auch mal etwas gönnen zu können. Also Leute, es könnte gerade nicht besser laufen und die Monate und Jahre Recovery zahlen sich gerade so aus!☺👌
Bleibt immer dran und gebt nie auf. Irgendwann seid ihr soweit gekommen und blickt stolz zurück. Ich glaube an jeden, der es nur probiert. Jeder Rückschlag lässt einen lernen und macht einen stärker💕


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Super fucking bad but that’s because GarageBand made it sound different than when I was editing it and I’m too lazy to go back and fix it ;-; oh whale
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#bpd #mdd #anixety #ocd #ptsd #selfharmmm #singing #ednos #billieeilish #depressed #depression #sad #ukulele #mentalhealth #mentalillness #suicidal #broken #selfharmmmm #emo #clique #svv #cutting #selfharmrecovery #recovery #selflove #music #borderline #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #relapse


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I had 2x the amount of tater tots on the plate...guilt is strong but I’m gonna distract myself by doing some art


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BE YOU AND DON’T LET ANYONE STOP YOU!!!❤️


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Relapsing..purges 4 times today and now I’m just downing a protein shake as a meal replacement #relapse #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #bulimia #anorexia #bulimiarecovery #thinspo #blenderbottle


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I haven’t fished in over 3 months, not even one cast. That really needs to change #identitycrisis #relapse #iswearistilldothis #lastbestplace #montanablues


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Dare to feel the pain without the bandage of drugs or alcohol.er yourself feel the sting so the wounds can breathe and heal naturally. SO THE WOUNDS CAN HEAL FOR REAL.


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Am extremely paranoid tonight so I shall be sleeping with the light on if I even do sleep 🤷🏻‍♀️


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Always got 🔥🔥🔥 new jar = more bud lets get it #budlife #trapmusic #shakewall #relapse #traplife #weedporn #weedmemes #ganggang #budjar #itslit


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I cut myself shaving is a great excuse.
Extra depressed today and can’t wait to self harm when I get home & drink some wine. #relapse #selfharm #ed #depression #itneverends


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・✩ Fuck top 5 bitch I’m top 4! And that includes Biggie and Pac whore and I’ve got an evil twin so who the fuck you think that 3rd and that 4th spot’s for ✩・
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New theme starts tomorrow, possibly tonight if I can be bothered haha



#eminem #slimshady #marshallmathers #eviltwin #kamikaze #revival #mmlp2 #recovery #relapse #encore #tes #mmlp #sslp #stanfamily #stanarmy


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Don’t judge each day by the harvest you reap but by the seeds that you plant
-Robert Louis Stevenson

Progress, not perfection 🤗 One day at a Time. The value of today doesn’t come from what you gain but rather what you give!!!
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#saynotodrugs #hopedealer#opioidcrisis #easydoesit #recoveryjourney #relapse #michiganmovement


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So I took all the mirrors down from my room except the two built on the wall that I can’t get off which I have put a dressing gown over for now until I figure out how to remove them. There was one on my door which covered the smashed door 🚪 but now the mirror is out the room so for now I will have to look at the dents maybe I will buy a poster for the door 🤷🏾‍♀️ but honestly sick of seeing myself all the time in my room and that’s where I spend everyday and night now and I wake up and all I see is me & I’m sick of it. Hopefully not having to see myself will make me feel a little better 🤷🏾‍♀️


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Hi guys!! ⁣

I’ve done it again, sorry for ghosting on the posts 😅⁣

Tonight’s dinner was a gluten free pizza (I added extra tomatoes and cheese!!) I was home alone so had to sort dinner for myself and to be honest I couldn’t be bothered to cook anything😂⁣

I’ve had a bit of a mad weekend, with everything getting cancelled for my 21st it’s been a bit of a mad dash trying to organise something to do for it. And just a general time of adjustment with some news which I didn’t know how to take. ⁣

Because I’ve left uni until the new year I’ve been able to deal with this all by taking the time to sit with myself and listen to myself and how I’m feeling and really get into why I’m feeling it.⁣
I am so thankful that I have all the coping tools I need to really commit to self reflection.⁣

I’m struggling with feelings of loneliness right now even though I have the most amazing support systems around me which seems counterintuitive but because I know loneliness and rejection are two of my biggest triggers I’m able to prepare and cope with it!! Isn’t being self aware magical 😅⁣

I’m going out with my cousin tomorrow as an early birthday day out so hopefully it’ll be a day full of love and laughs 💕⁣

Hope everyone is having a good week so far and hey! It’s only 2 weeks till CHRISTMAAASSS🎄 ⁣

#bulimiafighter #bulimiarecovery #bulimianervosarecovery #bulimia #bulimianervosa #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorders #recovery #relapse #mentalhealth #mentalillness #food #glutenfree #pizza #mindfulness


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