Hey guys, I hope you're having a nice day. I'm so glad to have my account back finally, I was so shocked as I noticed that my account has been hacked. But I tried my best to get it back and I did, so yay for that. The last few days have been pretty rough for me to be honest. It's more and more difficult for me to keep going, to continue with recovery and to try my best to function. PTW: I relapsed a lot these days regarding to my eating disorders, selfharming, ... I know that it's the wrong way, I know that I'm destroying the progress I've already made with these kind of behaviours but I can't help it. I can't bear my own feelings, my self image, my thoughts, my fears, my panic and my life in general. I have the feeling of suffocating cause of my feelings, I feel like I can't breathe. I had an appointment with my therapist yesterday and I got a new diagnosis she added depression to all of the other mental illnesses I'm already struggling with. It's nice to finally know why I'm feeling like that, why I have the feeling that noting of the old Naomi - the person I've been once - is left, but trying to handle it on top of all the other stuff is really, really difficult. I also have an appointment at the psychosomatic clinic in Munich on Monday which is really exciting cause I cancelled it at first, because my panic of being inpatient again was too high, but I managed to get it back, so let see how it's going. I'm trying not to expect too much cause maybe there is no way to be treated there cause of my physical eating / nutrition issues, but I will talk to them to see whats their opinion on it. I hope you're doing well and always keep in mind I'm here if everyone of you needs to talk or just somebody who is listening, feel free to DM me at every time. I'm so glad to be finally back here by my amazing insta community, I really missed being in touch with you.