We see what we want to see.
We read about it in short bursts on IG but we glorify the “fitspo” way too much and in doing so, we damage ourselves.
From a very beginner competitor, competing should not be taken lightly. It is expensive, mind-altering, selfish, and a demanding mistress.
Anything that you had “wrong” with you before prep will only be exacerbated, mental or physical.
You have an unhealthy relationship with food? Yep, worse.
You hate how you look? Trust me, you are going to work your ass off and basically, find more areas of improvement.
Struggling relationships? Well, I have a solid AF marriage and we have almost killed each other over egg whites (he is in prep too). You have issues with over-exercising and no rest days? That’s me And last Wednesday, it all came crashing down...
I train people at 5am 2 x a week in person, about 40 minute away, and those are long days.
Well, I had finally been seeing movement in my BM and was motivated by my more immediate progress but I was fucking tired and starving...so I pounded more than usual caffeine and had pre-workout and attempted the gym. I even sent some of my #motivationalbabes a text asking to pump me up!
I got to the gym, exhausted, and attempted to train chest...that was pathetic and then I “did” HIIT...jk, I barely broke a sweat, so I tried to walk on the treadmill and got so dizzy I almost fell off; I decided to leave.
Yep, fell asleep in my car. Woke up and called Dan to talk to me while I drove home...and once home, I couldn’t get out of the car, so Dan sent Bri to come get me and I just started crying...I promptly walked into our living room and laid on the couch and just kind of stared.
I knew I shouldn’t go to the gym, I knew my body was saying no but the stubborn asshole of an “athlete” said no rest days! Push through! Yeah, that bitch is crazy... Well, it’s one week later and I am feeling a lot better but today I didn’t want to go to the gym, I don’t want to leave my house but #goals...so I am on our stationary bike writing this. I am getting my cardio in while still respecting my bodies need to just be.
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