August 17th, 1986.
My Baptismal Birthday.
My mom reminds me of it every year.
As a baby I was baptized. Then when I was 12 I went through Confirmation.
But today...July 15th, 2018...I made the CHOICE.
I CHOOSE YOU, GOD.
I'M ALL IN.
MAKE ME WHATEVER YOU WANT ME TO BE.
If you would have told me a year ago that I was getting water baptized today, I would have politely laughed and probably made some sarcastic joke.
After a scary near drowning incident when I was 10, I resist any situation where I have to submerge my head under water.
Nope...not a water person.
Fire tho...well, I like fire.
A true Leo.
I can relate to fire.
My mom always used to quote 1 Peter 1:7 to me-"refined by fire" she would say, whenever I was struggling through the trials of life.
Burning is how I described this last year.
God allowed literally everything to burn, till I was surrounded by nothing but God and the ash of my former life.
Over and over this happened this year.
Loss and heartache would come tearing through and burn everything to the ground...
Till only God remained.
I guess in the scheme of life 6 months isn't that long.
Cause that's all the time it took for the Holy Spirit to come alive in my heart.
And honestly...just like falling in Love...it really only took an instant for me to fall for Him.
Everything changed, yet nothing changed.
But when I changed...I knew I needed to wash all the ash away.
To rise fresh and new.
To take one more step toward Him and the destiny He has for my life.
The other gals were nervous, so I stepped forward.
The first one in. I couldn't help but in that moment feel the Leadership God is calling me to.
The water was warm and inviting.
I stood there in front of my church family, my LA family, and God, ready to prove my Love for Him.
My dedication to Him.
As I dipped back, the water enveloped me like a warm hug.
There was no fear.
From the water.
From the ash.
From a former life to a new creation.
There is a new fire in me.
I AM A DAUGHTER OF THE KING.
A WARRIOR PRINCESS FOR LOVE WITH A SERVANT'S HEART.
LOVED BEYOND MEASURE.
READY AND WILLING.
SEND ME TO THE FRONT LINES, DAD.