As I began to write this post,
I recalled a conversation with someone who was annoyed because in her words, ”I was too happy” and she felt like I should be angry, hurt and sad like her. 😮
I remember thinking am I not relating to her, am I being insensitive? But then I thought about it and responded, I told her that I do get angry at times and that I have been hurt and manage daily not to be sad -however, I've been doing the inner work for soul justice which is something that no one can give to me. It's internal processing that takes place. 🙄
But mostly, I told her- I get angry at the harm done to others like herself that makes her believe she can only be one way. Tears swelled in her eyes as I told her that it took me until I was 38 years old to look in the mirror and see myself as worthy, let alone beautiful because of the violence, sexual abuse, and rape that I experienced. It took me too many years doing the work and now, I refuse for it to be undone by the past harm of another. I have been diagnosed with PTSD and living with that is double work because I had to practice strategies to help me manage whenever I am triggered. 💚
I know what it's like to want to end the pain, stop the nightmares and feel like you can't breathe under the weight of life. I've been there, but here's the thing- I choose not to live there. What I will do is my best at showing you how joy, love, and fun still exists on the other side of pain. It's why I am passionate about promoting life, all things beautiful and mental health.
Yes, you may have or is currently experiencing a horrific situation.
You are not alone. Hold on to hope, reach out and learn to do the work to be your beautiful self. 🌷
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