When the Universe reflects your thoughts, that's enough proof that the Universe is listening and sending me back the energy I am putting out. Scrolled through my FB and this pops up. I have been bothered by thoughts of worthiness. 👂I hear the thoughts echoing all around my head, I am NOT worthy! I mean it's so loud that it has jarred me out of my zone!! 💔My heart struggled to put into words to how I was feeling. I couldn't fully describe how I was feeling aside from lost, confused, angry, and disregarded. 💔I was struggling with acceptance. I was struggling with adequacy. I was struggling to feel validated. 💔Suffering through emotional trauma over someone else's trauma is hell! I get I can't control how people feel. However, mutual friends and family, validates the person who has caused you trauma. They validate his suffering and they validate his comeback. They value him and they check on him. However, they fail to recognized and validate the other people affected by his trauma. Like his struggles are real and mine aren't. And this disregard, snowballed from rejection to unworthiness, dislove, and feeling completely insignificant. 🐅Silver lining, I recognized the truth in all of my feelings. There isn't anything I can do on how others sees me. I can't make them SEE me and my struggles. I can't make them feel how I feel! I can't make them validate that I too suffered greatly because I put someone else's suffering over mine. I placed someone else's importance over mine. I placed more importance on someone else's existence over mine. And those people who validates him, are silent and non-existent. 🐅I am a fighter. I am strong. I am important. Trauma happened to me. I can now choose to let trauma be my purpose for healing. The search for validation, respect, and love has to come from me. No one else is there to validate how I am, who I am, what I am. Just need to take it one second at a time, then one minute at a time, then one day at a time, until I no longer feel the need for friends and family to validate my feelings, my thoughts, my struggles, and most of all my accomplishments.
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