This is my apology: December is half way over, as is 2017. In many ways, for myself, this has been the toughest year yet. For once I put my education first, the caveat? Putting everyone and everything on hold.
As a result many have thought - and may still be thinking - that I don't care for them, that I am upset in some way with them, that I have forgotten them, or that I do not care. The reality is I deeply love each one of you - I just am so busy with PPAT, coursework, student teaching, studying for the Pearson, keeping up a decent sized home and property, and my little family, all on my own while Tim drives to keep us in a good place financially.
As most of you know, on a good day my communication skills, and generally reaching out, are poor. I can do better, and I've been working on that. Please know, and try to understand, I've been working hard to contribute to my little family and alleviate the stresses from Tim. As such, I have forgotten MANY birthdays and special events this year, I am sorry, I promise to be better at remembering.
Here is what you need to know: as a whole, I am well. I am taken care of. I am happy. I am loved. But there are days when I am superbly overwhelmed with stress from coursework and hime, and am overwhelmed with loneliness, and fatigue. Some of you only chime in to be negative, then pretend to be kind at family events. Some of you are too busy to lend a venting call (I UNDERSTAND, no hard feelings). Some of you don't care. Some of you just don't understand. All of these are ok, I get it, but understand each of these contribute to my not reaching out to you. I have a support team, I'll be okay. Also, I need to start focusing on my health and stress.
In 4 months, I will be absolutely available for get togethers, in the meantime, I'll do my best to reach out and hopefully visit those of you within an hour... But remember, it's a two way street, and my door is always open - busy or not - I just can't travel so expect to visit me for a while. I have everything you need. Until then, thank you all, I love having you in my life.
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