Let's talk about #anxiety and #depression as a #mom.
I have had diagnosed clinical depression and sever anxiety and tendancies towaed reckless bahavior and #selfharm for 10 years. When I became a mom, we added #panic disorder and #ppd to that.
I cope with life in a variety of ways. And I've been coping well. For the most part. This past weekend, I had a wonderful show at the coast where I took a little time to recharge, but coming back home to Connor being out of school, and Cohen home for part of the week, I've been drained of my spoons.
You see, I am a firm believer in the #spoontheory. The spoon theory is often outlined for fibro sufferers.
The concept is that each person has a set number of spoons in their day. Different people have different numbers on their base. Introverts and those suffering from chronic illness or traumatic injury tend to have fewer spoons than extroverts and able bodied/minded people.
Similarly, for some people certain actions take more spoons than the same actions for other people.
The last week, I've been over exerting my spoons, with no chance to restock. The kids aren't listening, the house never gets caught up to clean, my business can't run itself, I don't often even have the energy left after Makin sure the tiny humans survive to eat something myself.
And while I know it's okay to have down days, it's not okay to have down weeks and months without getting help. Unfortunately, I don't qualify for state insurance, and we can't afford insurance through @cornfeddavid's work. So my illnesses go untreated, but the expections of performance remain.
I don't ask for help often, but I think it's time I reach out. And if you find yourself in this situation, please reach out for help too.
#ppd #depression #anxiety #suicidalthoughts #selfharm #mom #momlife #wahm #sahm #momboss