I know I don't share much about my personal journey here, but to shine light on the power of unconscious limiting beliefs here goes ~ continued from my previous post.
So back in 2012 I fell ill, almost over night I developed Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Allergic Contact Dermatitis, IBS, Food Intolerances & the whole shebang of depression, anxiety & OCD that came with it, as it forced me to give up my job, flat & life in London to move back home to my mums, unable to work.
With no solutions from doctors, except steroids to suppress my symptoms, because there was 'no cure'. I refused & set out on a healing journey. I had cured myself in 2 years (in a physical sense) & somewhat on a mental, emotional & spiritual level, we all know they're continuous, lol. But I was well enough to move back to London, start working again & rebuild my life. After this experience, I really learnt to 'listen to my body', before my burn out I'd been running on empty, being a tunnelled vision workaholic, ignoring all the signs.
Fast forward to 2017, I'm in India, it's a couple of days into my Sattva Yoga YTT, when I wake up with a flu. I felt rough but decided to go to my morning journey, thinking 'just be in the space & do as much as you can, you can always stop if you need too'. We begin, dropping into silence, moving deeper within, arriving into a powerful breath practice (Shiva Kriya 1 for those that know 😂), I considered stopping just as Anandji (my teacher) starts speaking to moving beyond your fears. In that moment something said keep going, I dug deep & before I knew it, a ferocious wave of energy rose from the base of my spine, my heart cracked & I burst into tears, still deep in the practice, I had the realisation that I'd been living in the fear of getting ill again. I wasn't listening to my body at all, I was letting it control me. Tears continued to pour from my eyes, as I had a flash back to a session with an accpuncturist I'd been seeing back in 2012. He said my stores were so depleted, that I have no reserves & the only chance i have of recovering is the fact that I'm so young but I should never, ever push myself 100%. CONTINUED in comments⬇️