This is the last post of me I promise. I'm sure people follow me for the figures.. I'm just in a bit of a rut and need some help.. Many of you following may know the past few months of my life have been miserable at best. I used to laugh or mock people with suicidal thoughts until they started overtaking my head.
I won't go into detail but basically the one thing I have wanted my whole life was taken from me and it's the hardest thing I've ever deal with in my life. Being alone every single day , being discarded knowing that this is not what I want In my life , it's hard. Circumstances are just excuses , people do what they truly want to do. People bury others with zero remorse and drive such emotional wedges into the brain, even the strongest willed people can get caught up in dark deep depression .. As we come closer to Christmas, I feel more pressure daily , I see happy people all around me. Family's sending Christmas cards , couples posting photos together , general happiness .. It's hard.
I've never went thru a holiday feeling like this , mental illness is a real real thing.. how do people get thru this alone ? I'm scared and worried. I'm a strong person but I'm also very weak and vulnerable to my own mind.
Sorry for rambling , just thought maybe somebody out there was going thru the same thing and wanted to understand how to cope with it.. I love you all and the support keeps me going
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