I love this poem from the book “Stripped” by Cara Alwill Leyba. Lately I’ve been doing some deep inner work around pain and fear. Sitting with it, inviting it to the table, learning from what it has to share with me. Being okay with the fear. Being okay with the pain. Not trying to run away or hide from it, but allowing myself to get really comfortable with the uncomfortable, which is not an easy task, but becomes easier with practice. I’m releasing the resistance and going into those places and letting the tears flow. You really do have to feel it to heal it. My grandmother passed thirteen years ago and yesterday I could feel some grief come up around this and I did not fight it or try to hide it, I just sat with it and allowed it to flow. What came up after that was grief around not being a mother. I have worked on this area for many years after the surgeries and desmoid tumor, but there was more healing to be done. Another layer. I welcomed it to the table, sat with it, and let the tears flow, allowing it to pass through. We all have a shadow side. It’s an area many of us try and avoid at all cost. I know I did. It almost seems that if you go there, the pain will be too great and you will not be able to find your way out. However, I’ve also found that the only way out, is through, and it is within those shadows that true healing takes place. It’s okay if you fail. It’s okay if you fall. It’s actually by sitting with those fears and failures that we learn who we are. Your healing journey is unique to you. So walk or even crawl if you must, but remember that one single step forward is still progress. Every time you truly feel your feelings or make one choice for your health and self-care, you are healing. It’s not about perfection, but rather taking that imperfect action forward, even if you are scared or don’t feel 100% ready. Remember to show yourself a whole lot of love, grace, and compassion for the healing work you are doing. It does get easier. You will feel lighter. You are healing the scars from the past, and that is beautiful. You will know when the healing has taken place when you can see those scars and also see beauty and love there as well.