This is about to get real, real quick, just for a sec;
In the last year, I have walked into seeing a "friend of seven years, staying the night, in our home.
I was in a mentally physically and verbally abusive marriage. I was 'that' girl.
I covered up, enabled, deceive myself, family and friend. I was told countless times if I didnt leave, I'd end up dead.... I covered up with makeup and a bright smile almost six years. I was put down, belittled to doubt my mental capacity and mind so I was the bad guy.
Everytime this person came home, high, I would justify and just be glad he was happy, and that we could act like the couple people thought we were. I lost 27 lbs. In a year, and people spread rumors I was on drugs, because I was thin, and not like my normal self.
To this day, I cut people out of my life for this very reason. I'm HAPPY.
Am I happy that stuff happened? I can't answer that. I have a beautiful son in result of that marriage.
Did I cry for a year and a half? Because I don't believe in divorce. Period.
But when your father (a pastor) advises it,
You make the hardest decision of your life.
To lose the love of my life.
The man I called best friend.
The man I made a life and home with. I don't post this as necessarily a warning; I post this to tell a chapter of my life.
To tell someone reading, Love is an action before a feeling. Love is patient, love is kind, love is compassionate, and understanding, love is forgiving, honest. LET TELL YOU WHAT LOVE IS NOT:
Love does not belligerently hurt another, with wilful intentions, love does not lie;
Love does not cut down another's intelligence.
Love for damn sure does not physically harm another they "love."
The person that consciously chooses to harm physically, mentally or emotionally, and then justify it by them being the culprit instead of the victim. This post is to tell mankind,
Even though I take medicines for PTSD,
My eyesight may have decreased by by nearly 60% None of this has broke me.
God's had my son And I's back and he entire time.
I'm not a victim I'm a survivor and child of His. I'M BLESSED
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