THIS IS GOING TO BE LONG:
As I'm sitting down and doing my nightly routine, my mind begins to run wild. I start to reflect back to how I started this journey of music to now. I remember just wanting to do it because it was fun and all my cousins including my sister were singers. I use to learn all the Disney songs, the power ballads of 90s, trying to imitate Whitney and Celine who were kind of like my vocal coaches. I remember annoying my sister singing I Will Always Love You on repeat with the VHS.
I remember the positives but I remember negatives.
I remember being told singing was a hobby by people because it wouldn't make money
I was told I couldn't sing
I was told I was too fat , dark skin and ugly to make it in the industry
And for a time, I stopped and I didnt open my mouth to let out a note from the age of 8 until 14
I allowed people and society to stop me from what I loved out of fear of rejection.
It wasn't until my sister Cindy came back from Trinidad to live with us in South Carolina when I sang again....the song was Praise is what I do. As I sang the song, tears flowed down my cheek because I missed it. I missed singing and sharing what I had, however, I was still fragile inside to take it serious.
In high school, I started writing my own songs for my own enjoyment but deep down, I wanted to share them. I use to always have vocal challenges with a couple of guys who were the football team with me (btw: @vedwards949 and @musicisbliss87 had the best voices in CCHS at the time) but it never went beyond that.
While I never took it seriously in HS, College was different. I met friends who were equally talented and we cultivated each others talents. ( @chylmusic @gtx1070white @tylanj @_brotherj @23_approved @djprincecharming @johnnyb_smith @i_wreak_havoc @jjbmusic @23_approved @meltwainecupid @jacoby_287 @patriley4 thank you )
College was a place where discovered I could anything if i put my mind to it and if I worked hard for it. It was there I decided to take it serious.
However, The negatives started pop up again: Nobody wants to hear you sing
Lose weight or nobody will buy into you
Look like this or You need to sound like that