So, here is 1 of #somanystories at #spartankillington … Conquering my greatest fear at the swim obstacles. When I first went for the swim 2 years ago panic set in and I chickened out. I knew after finishing that race that I WANTED to go back and I NEEDED to complete that obstacle. An obstacle that I ALSO skipped in Tahoe in 2017. I took my 90 suck ass burpees instead. Here I was in 2018 and signed up for Vermont again and I told @racingprincess12 that I needed her help even if she needed to drag me in the water kicking and screaming. I slowly approached the water which looked like fun. I kept taking baby steps into the water and there it was, that moment that I felt I couldn’t breathe. I was basically hyperventilating and having a #panicattack … I got inside my head and felt myself quitting again and although I had people that cared about me reassuring me, I started crying because I didn’t want to do this. Then, I remembered 2016 and I snapped out of it. I heard my friends talking me through and I continued to walk into the water until I didn’t feel the surface under my feet and I was so scared, but I also felt so alive as I doggie paddled to where my friends were directing me to go. I felt it again for a moment when more swimmers were surrounding me (the panic), but my friends reassured me that I wasn’t going anywhere. I wasn’t going to drown and I wasn’t going to die (at least not there). As we approached the ladder this is when I knew that there was no turning back now. I climbed up the ladder and grabbed the first rope knowing I was going to drop into the water immediately. There I was swinging on the one rope, and there I dropped deep into the water because I didn’t know I had to actually attempt to swim up (duh). I was submerged in water and thought to myself, “I’m dying.” I eventually surfaced and my friend grabbed me and I obviously swallowed some water and choked for a bit and I yelled out, “Oh my god I want to do it again that was so exciting!” From there on out I didn’t need help swimming back out and all I know is I had the biggest cheesiest smile on my face that obviously @spartan captured and I will never turn away from a swim obstacle ever again.