I’ve been battling something I never chose.. whether it’s a car wreck that wasn’t our fault, cancer, losing a spouse, getting laid off.. it may be more or less to some.. but it’s all circumstances we have no control over..
Most people hear that and think.. “dude just breathe and relax.. you’ll be fine..” ha! I WISH it were that easy!! Trust me! I could feel normal or whatever is part of normalcy these days.. but unfortunately this disorder isn’t that easy to get rid of.
After conquering my first counseling session this morning, I learned a lot in an hour than I have these past 8 years of battling it or masking it rather, on my own.
There are so many things I learned that I couldn’t possibly write them down on this post.. (Ig has a limit lol)
But what I’m getting to is..
The main objective I learned.
I didn’t ask for it. I never wanted something to control my mind so deep that I had no power to stop it.
I’ve always wanted laughter, love, joy and peace in my life.. NOT THIS. But I’ve got it.. and the abuse/ sexual trauma will always be a memory.. But it doesn’t have to control me anymore.. And it sure as hell doesn’t define me.
It’s not who I am, it’s just what I’m GROWING THROUGH. And I’ll be damned if I let it shake my life anymore.
I’m stepping my game up just a little more and you’re about to see a fire in me that NO one can stop.
Just sit back and WATCH.
With God, I WILL OVERCOME.
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