What a lot of people don’t know is that I truly struggled with some eating disorders about 10 years ago.
It’s crazy it see how far I’ve come... one thing that’s true is that during my deepest, darkest time of feeling awful about myself (mainly from a break-up, messing up in college, and a few other things.) I’ve realized that it was just silly. I can’t believe I ever let outside sources destroy my well
Being. I would purge and be afraid of gaining anything. Eating junk food freaked me out because of how much calories and trans fats were in it. It was so sad. •
The me today, 29 years old, happily married and a new mama, I would tell myself to never let outside influences dictate or mold who you are. We mess up, we make mistakes, but without them we wouldn’t be able to grow from them. It’s just not possible. We destroy our thoughts with negativity and tell ourselves “we CANT” do something... “we aren’t good enough” or “I’m not pretty enough.” •
Why do we do that? Why are we so hard on ourselves? Why are we afraid? Why do we think we can’t do something? Why do we believe others are better then us? Why can’t we see past the negative thoughts sometimes? Why are we “bullying” ourselves? •
It’s not easy going through a tragedy or what may seem like the end of the road. The enemy always wants to tear us down. Destroy our well being. Bury us. •
We have to rise up and beat it. We have to believe in ourselves. We have to ignore the lies and press on.
I would hate when people would tell me “oh are you just gunna throw up?” Rather then, “ hey I know you’re struggling with some deep issues, would like to talk about it? What can I do to help?” •
I was able to come out of my sickness. I recovered and it WAS NOT easy. I had a few good people to support me. Others just said their negative comments. My whole point, is that sometimes life isn’t easy. We move on or we don’t. But it’s a choice. EVERY. THING. IS. A. CHOICE. How we think, what we believe, how we react. I chose to be done with that crappy mentality. All I want to do is to be able to help someone realize it’s ok if you’re struggling, just don’t be afraid to ask for help. #shiftyourmindset