Oh yeah, B+ the best grade I've achieved in a math class my first time through since like 5th grade haha. It's artificially inflated though some how lol I didn't earn that through work but subtle hints of my attitude and drive. #neverenough #cantgetnosatisfaction. #thatrighttherecauseforcelebration , I know I hardly ever really enjoy school acomplishments, because I always know I could have done better, I have no discipline. I'm torn between feeling proud for managing a B or close in a program considered difficult and knowing I wasted a lot of time, but, I really enjoyed myself riding bikes and painting unseen landscapes out of dirt in the town my parents loved, but where I feel totally out of place. Straight A's aren't desirable for engineers anyway, it means you're a perfectionist and difficult to work with. So you really have to be yourself and be driven to create your own life. I'm always torn between if I should drop out and learn a trade or change my degree again to something easier and more intuitive for me because even my mom asks if i can do this. Some people know who they are and are comfortable in their skin. "what's it like to stand in your shoes?
To have never felt the belt of somebody's abuse?" #streetlightmanifesto "but it must be pretty cool to be you
with your brothers at your back, protecting you
it must be pretty cool to know you belong
isolated my whole life counting scars in the land of the smiling knives
yes I'm envious it's true, but it must be cool to be you" #thedescendents #coloradical. This grade #madeanimpression