This will not be a normal meet recap
The meet total that qualified me for USAPL Raw Nationals 2019 was 100+ kilograms over the minimum requirement, so going into this meet I was very confident. However, I bombed this morning: only 3/9 good lifts (2 squats, 1 bench, no deadlifts) yes, you read that correctly: I did not complete a single deadlift this morning
I’d like to say I handled it well, pushed past and moved on, but no. After my third deadlift fail I walked swiftly to the restroom and cried. I was completely crushed that I had just received 5 no lifts (15 red lights) in a row at weights that would normally be easy to lift. I looked at my smudgy, small reflection in the mirror, collected myself and my emotions, washed the chalk and blood off my hands, and went back to my amazing support system where I received some much needed hugs and a few pep talks.
I was able to evaluate my morning and how I would view my experience: I could either be disappointed in myself or I could take everything that occurred and grow
I have put my body through a lot over the past 6 months. I have gone through two 10-15 lb water and weight counts, PR’d numerous lifts and hit high volume maxes almost every week. Over the past year I have added 40 lbs to my back squat and 60 lbs to my deadlift and have not had a true rest or deload (aside from the 5 days after I was concussed). It's time for a reset and a small restart. My forms need work, tiny tweaks to improve efficiency. I want to adjust my diet and regulate cardio into my routine 3-4 times a week and look to maintain a bodyweight of 118-120 lbs
After evaluating my performance and making goals for I need to change and how I need to approach what is going on right now, I can look at today as a mile-marker in my journey. I QUALIFIED FOR NATIONALS. (did it go how I planned? no) But I was strong enough to belong here. I did not display it today, but I am so grateful and thankful for everything I was able to grow through
One more thing: an enormous thank you to my dad and coach, my momma (my everyday gym partner and biggest cheerleader) and Don for all coming out to support me and for everyone back home💗
My journey just began