I got dressed with every intention of #carrying today and after i took these #pictures, I decided I didn't want to. Something felt off and I didn't want the additional #stress of the #responsibility of carrying today. I felt as though I wasn't my physical and mental best, that my #judgement may be somewhat #stagnant or limited. So I didn't #carry. I felt good for giving myself a day of rest in that aspect. I still practiced surroundings awareness and my interactions with people, but I didn't feel #fear or #naked because #myspringfieldsteve wasn't with me. This gave me the opportunity to go to the #postoffice without parking on the street and leaving my #gun in my #car.
As the day went on, about lunchtime I developed a #migraine, and that is when I realized it was a #good decision to leave Steve at home. #migraines can severely impair judgment and twist your #nervoussystem into #shapes you didn't know existed. They can cause a person to be #hypersensitive to #light and #sound giving opportunity for you to see or hear things that may not be there or tune things out in overcompensation. Basically the body goes into overdrive to try to manage/survive the #pain (not to mention the #nausea). You can call me #hypocritical for continuing to drive my car (which is also capable of hurting people) even though I don't feel good enough to carry. I understand your perspective. All comments regarding my #medicalcare will be #dismissed as we have been dealing with this for 15 years and are coming at it from every angle possible. #Occurrence has reduced from 3x per week to 1-2x per month which I am grateful for. Complete elimination is my goal. Til then, I #respect myself the best I can. #carryon and I hope you all have a wonderful #weekend.