The hardest part of my high school career wasn't graduating. The hardest part was leaving behind the people who pushed me through this last year. The people who didn't let me give up. That put a smile on my face when I didn't have the energy to. If you're still talking to me after June, you'll realize that I still talk about Show Choir like I'm still a part of the group. The reason to that is, they had to deal with my mood swings. With me cutting everyone off, to hugging everyone, laughing out of nowhere, and crying during rehearsal. I should've been one of the strongest people in the group, but I wasn't and I feel like I let everyone down because of that. I know, that they don't feel that way, but I do! •
If it wasn't for Show Choir and a few of my other friends, I honestly don't know if I would be here right now. I wanted to give up on life so many times. Whenever I got into that mindset, I would think about my friends, and I would think about Show Choir. I definitely would've let them down if I had let the demons in my mind tell me what to do. •
It's currently July with me writing this, but I feel like it should be said now. There will always be a group of people who feel like their job is to make you hate yourself and to feel unworthy. They want you to think that no one loves you even though that isn't the truth. The group of people that I'm talking about, they don't feel loved. They don't feel like they're good enough for anyone, so they target someone who feels like nothing can tear them down. Why do they do that? They do it because they want everyone to hurt as much as them, or maybe even more. •
Now, if you're apart of the group that made my life hell. I want you to know that I'm happy and I know that I have a loving Father that will love me no matter what mistakes I've made in the past. I also forgive you. If you didn't make me want to die, then I wouldn't be as strong as I am now. So thank you.
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