TRIGGER WARNING hello everyone :) some of you have been wondering about my “absence” over the past 2 months (i havent been posting a ton) uhh so this has been where ive been i guess?? please remember that this is MY story & it’s different for everyone. i hope it inspires someone out there to get help. so, ive been dealing w mental health for over 2 yrs now, & it started to get really bad in late november, early december. i lost sm motivation, i stopped being productive, & basic things just became?? so?? hard?? to do?? i began to self harm more within those periods. (i had self harmed before, but rarely.) then, in early march, late february, things just escalated. i hadnt been to a therapist in a few years because i just couldnt get myself to ask for another one, & thats when i struggled most in school, socially & w family. i started to cut myself regularly, multiple times a day. on april 28th (my bday) i was trying on my new bts sweatshirt. i was wearing short sleeves (taking off my other sweater) & my mom saw. she knew what it was. my dad had saw a week prior, and i had told him it was from my young kitten, & he believed me. from there, i was brought to my pediatrician & then sent to the emergency room bc i wasnt safe enough to go home. i was there for 6 hrs - it was pretty horrible. a few weeks later, i was enrolled into a program after school, 3-7 pm, everyday. it was at a hospital nearby & i went there for 3 weeks, until i was discharged recently. this is where ive been. though, i still struggle with self harm, i now go to therapy, am on medication, & have worked on communication with my parents. if you know anyone struggling with depression, self harm, suicidal thoughts, please encourage them to get help. i wish i had reached out sooner. but, this is my message to you guys :) i think it’s important to remind people that MENTAL HEALTH IS IMPORTANT. it is just like any other illness - IT IS REAL. if u need someone to talk to, feel free to dm me. reach out to someone, and if you are suicidal, please contact the suicide hotline, or the crisis hotline (which is a texting way of communication) @ 741-741.