“It’s been an adventure. We took some casualties over the years. Things got broken. Things got lost. But I wouldn’t have missed it for the world.” Thinking of the ones who lost the fight and the ones who kept on fighting tonight.
I kept going. 10 years ago, I couldn’t see my way out of the darkness. I went down the dark and lonely path and decided to leave. 2000 miles away, several handfuls of prescription pills and one urgent phone call to my roommate and a two week stay in the hospital.
It’s been a struggle. I think about the quote from the movie, Rocky Balboa. “Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place and I don't care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard ya hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward...” In the last 10 years, I’ve hit rock bottom, I felt lost, alone and scared. I got on medication, I got off medication. I’ve broken some hearts and gotten mine broken. I lost my dad, some close friends, a baby, got diagnosed with t1d and suffered crazy postpartum. I’m still here. I fight everyday.
10 years later, I’m married, we own a house and car, I’m the mom to the most incredible son who surprises me everyday and reminds me to keep going.
If you’re feeling like you want to bail on life, PLEASE DON’T. Please reach out to someone, a friend, family member, stranger on social media. We all want you to stay.
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