"Because without the right shade of lipstick I am not enough"
I'm along for this journey just as much as the next person and, confession, yes I still find myself Idolising thin. Through Anorexia Nervosa recovery I haven't simply woken one day, eliminating 1000's of expectations & ideas I've created. Fuck No. However, I work bloody hard at silencing that horrible voice in my mind. But the thoughts creep back at times. When I'm down, when I lack confidence, when I feel inadequate or when I'm feeling lost, the thoughts creep back. There's days I wake, staring in the mirror, unhappy with the figure looking back at me, because I wish I looked a little bit more.... thin, beautiful, natural blah fucking blah. There's a subconscious voice telling me that if I were thin, everything will be okay.
It's the same old story we're ALL told daily by the things we don't even realise. Research estimates we take in between 4000 - 10,000 advertising messages DAILY. It's in the media when they only show perfectly photoshopped women in their ads, in the tv shows/movies with the main character a caucasian, blonde, tanned, thin girl who gets the guy, in the health industry where messages state weight loss simply = health, shown through mannequins at retail stores & many more! We learn through the comments of others who revel in your recent 'weight loss' asking what's your secret? When in reality you've been stressed as fuck & barely coping! These messages create 1 ideal type of woman. Yet, you only have to walk into a cafe & realise that's such a small minority of women & our bodies are extremely diverse. These messages tell us WE'RE NOT ENOUGH, AS WE ARE. We NEED what they have for us. Maybe it's a slimming shake, diet pills, a fat-burning supplement, meal plan, booty burner honestly I could go on, the point is WE DON'T NEED THESE, & we don't need to improve our appearance for societies approval.
I've ranted too much so I'll attach the poem that's helped me in my bio xxx