An old writing for a love of this state.
I think being raised in the desert is one of the most valuable aspects of my life that molded me into who I am. This love has seeped into my bones and created my nomadic heartbeat. Starting with my dad taking me on drives every weekend.. it was like we played tic tac toe with the state. He had property in southern Arizona and I remember one day he was doing work on it and he said I could take the truck with my friend; far before I had my license. I went too fast, of course, went over a bump and my friend flew out of her seat and hit her head on the roof. We laughed, so hard and promised we wouldn't tell him.
It is in my bones to explore. From daily rides into the mountains on horseback with my childhood best friend, and wandering the desert around the house I grew up in, and building [what we thought to be, and what I still believe to be]; badass forts. Then "growing up" and getting my license and being able to drive. Even when it was just down to my favorite street to see the best stars because we had no street lights. I would lay on the hood of my truck and stargaze and think about everything and nothing. I feel like I've been on top of my truck maybe almost as much as I've been in it. And I also feel that I find myself in the desert almost as much as I've gotten lost in it. As I've gotten older, I have a really really hard time being in the present moment. I miss those 16 year old days of sneaking out of the house and just driving to that street just so I could hang out with the night and its stars. Yes, I wander, but I don't stay. And right now, I am reflecting back to those moments. Currently sitting on top of my chariot, and watching the stars begin to show, and listening to the night come out to play. Nothing can really compare to those desert sounds. And it is in this moment that I am reverted to relearn, why I love nature so much. I haven't done this in so long. Just me, my truck, the desert, and the night. And I am sorry to myself for missing the moments that have shaped me to become who I am. And thank you to the desert's night and its soundtrack that can't be mimicked, [continued below]