Let’s talk about the happy day of my life. The day I married my husband Matt. It was such an amazing day. It was beautiful out. We got married in our church South Florida where live and our reception was at one of the most beautiful venues. I was so excited to start our lives together. We did not live together before we got married and I was 35 when we tied the knot. Family and friends flew from all over to watch us get married.
You never would know that by looking at me I was having an anxiety attack. I have suffered with anxiety for a long time. The week leading up to the wedding was stressful. It was the year when the northeast part of the country was having snowstorms every other day. We had so many people not able to make it to the wedding. This included 1 bridesmaid, my niece and sister in law, and 20 other family and friends. This caused me so so much stress that I didn’t even realize until I had time to think. I made it through the ceremony but did have to run to the bathroom to get some water.
There was a few incidents with the church mixing things up that caused a ton of stress which again I put aside.
After our first dance, which I barely made it through without getting sick, I went up stairs because I thought I was just sick. I had been going and going for so long. I was hot so I thought I had come down with something. I also have IBS which can cause many issues. Anyway, as the reception went on I was laying upstairs trying to cool down. My sister-in-law came up and said you are so hot you has to take off your dress. This was the thing that turned things around. I was overheated. No one tells you that those dresses can really get hot . I got changed and finally went back downstairs. I had missed most of our reception that we planned for a year.
It is all ok though because we planned that reception for our guests to enjoy. I heard that everyone had a great time.
I honestly did not realize that is was anxiety for a few days. I was upset about this but then I realized that it is about the marriage and not the day. I love this man so much and he helps ease my worried mind everyday