Growing up, i used to be so introverted. I mean, i literarily internalized everything. Everything was thought yet nothing said. Oh yeah, i made good grades but...duh, if i hadn't even my books would've been surprised cos they were my only real friends. I lived inside books - Jane Eyre and David Copperfield kept me pretty much occupied - and some movies too. The Sound of Music, The Champ & The Ten Commandments were my introduction into the world of cinema.
Oh, i dreamed of carrying on long conversations with people i'd just met. You know, something along the lines of walking up to someone at an event and striking up a conversation that would be a prelude to a fun and fantastic friendship. Fantastic, right? 😁
Then i went to Secondary School and i began to experience a budding sense of the 'i too can talk' feeling. I began to come out of my 'shell' slowly but surely. But at best, i had my inner circle of friends that i gisted with. Anyone outside that circle only saw my clammed-up self. I was frustrated by this but it was what it was.
Then came Uni. The big world of college. 100 Level was spent alone observing again. It seemed i grew worse not better. I was seen by many as that 'proud girl'. Always had my earpiece in with music on full blast as i went to and from class on 'walkway' everyday. They didn't know i was a painfully shy girl, socially inept and needing a friend.
Anyway, my saving grace came one day in the form of a sweet, friendly girl in my class. Her name was Lola. Younger than me, she was talkative but in a cool way. She had a look about her like, 'I don't care, I'll just be me'. I admired that about her and she was friendly to me first. So, we became friends and people often communicated with me through her. We grew close, and i made more friends through her.
I discovered i loved meeting people. I even introduced Lola to a few of my new friends.
I began to wonder who i was. Was i an introvert? Or a newly-discovered extrovert? I was confused because i quite liked hanging out with friends, i even engineered some get-togethers. I discovered i loved to dance. Me! Smh.
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