If you told me 10 years ago what my life would be like today I probably wouldn’t believe you. Growing up was probably the hardest thing I ever went through. Adult life is a breeze in comparison.
I was bullied horribly, and coped with it by retreating and creating a whole new identity on the internet so that I could safely express myself. I drew a lot and hid it from the world, and dislocated my shoulder in swimming practice. I often sat alone at lunch. I constantly doubted and even hated myself. I always wondered why I couldn’t just be “normal”, not realizing that just about every young person goes through various challenges along the way to adulthood. I was very self-centered and lacked a lot of basic compassion, because no one had ever shown me it. I was a terrible friend to others and allowed others opinions to sabotage my relationships instead of trusting my own views.
When I moved to Japan I began to find my voice and fight the one in my head telling me I wasn’t good enough. When I moved to Denmark, I learned it was ok to do stuff just because it made me happy (finally at age 20!), and to embrace my talents instead of hiding them. It sounds terrible but I wouldn’t let myself be happy because I had so many restrictions and rules in my head dictating what I could and couldn’t do. I started going off my instincts more and being a kinder person. Making lifelong friends and my relationship with my now-husband flourished. I’m so happy in my own skin now.
I’d like to give the 14-year-old me a hug and tell her, it’s going to be ok. That some day, people will like you for who you are, not for what you can achieve. And that some people won’t like you but that’s ok too! Cheers to a new decade 🥂
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